breaking down.

Siigh.

As axpected, my parents wants me to go for matriculation. I knew it. Other parents don't want the kids to go, but I want to stay back so much, and they want me to go. LOL!
Strongly, my answer is ..
NO
NO
NO


But they lectured me about the pros of going into matriculation. I know its good. But I kept giving all kinds of excuses not to go. But my dad went too far, and I blurted it out crying that I want to stay for my sister.Stupid, I cried during dinner. And guess what, everyone kepoh see me crying.-.-

Grow up, be mature. Thats what I got. Look, I tend to look naive and innocent and you can say dumb but I'm not the person people think I am.

I want to stay back here for her, and thats my decision. I do think about future and probably think about others before me. I tend to worry about her, and worry less about my own future. So, some people mistaken me as aimless in my future.
But, be proud of me that I do this for good.

Dad : Tell me whats your reason you don't wanna go.
Me : I told you, I wanna stay back here. I'm not ready.
Dad : I didn't ask why do you wanna stay back here.
Me : But, thats my reason.
Dad : Please la, doesn't mean there's like 90% Malays there, you don't want to go.
Me : Thats not my main reason. I got my own reason.
Dad : Why? Then Why? You got boyf here izzit???????
Me : WHAT BOYF ????????????? I stay back for Isabelle!!!!

And that's how I end up crying in front of people. swt.


But don't get it all wrong, my dad's just trying his best. No blames on him. Its just that I want him to know that I am not the person he think I am. I don't talk much to him, but inside, I think a lot.

I'm alright now, I just need to do a lot of thinking. Not go or GO. But inside, I wanna stay..
Being emo just now, I just had to think of a song to listen. And I thought of :



Simple Plan Lyrics

Haha old song, but I still love it.:)

Anyway, I just read Joanne's blog. And Marie Digby's coming down to KL!
Those who don't know her, she's a star born out of YouTube. She's the one that sang Rihanna's Umbrella ,it appeared on hitz.fm. I love her, and watch her on YouTube all time. :)

Venue: One Utama
Time : 8pm to 9pm
Date : 14th May :)




Her Umbrella version appeared on MTV's The Hills.


This is my favourite. An acoustic version of Britney Spear's Gimme More. :)

I hope I can go..:)

Anyway, I'm going to Port Dickson on Sat and Sun. Gotta attend dad's army reunion. xD
I don't think I'll update till then. Unless, there's anything interesting. But, I doubt. See ya soon :) :)




TTFN. xoxos.